Having been in considerable meltdown mode over just about everything for the last 2 days, I am not considerably calmer. Not sorted by any means, but I can now at least face the world again. It's amazing how simple things like a phonecall and someone saying 'can i help?' can be exactly what you needed, even though you didn't realise it yourself.
And to the other person who's getting me through life at the moment, you already know im more than grateful towards you :)
Also, don't read about suicides whilst depressed. it leads to a strange sort of melancholy.
Mood: see last line.