Tuesday, 6 November 2012
People keep telling me I'm brave.
I don't feel brave. I feel like someone who got kicked in the teeth. Being crazy and having 2 lifelong physical problems to deal with wasn't enough. Something felt I needed more. I'm not asking what I did to deserve this. I'm just not feeling brave. I'm feeling like someone who's scared and angry and is looking for as many kinds of outlets for that as possible.
I'm forcing myself to write things down and tell you what's going on because if I don't actively make myself do that I know I will close off, and run as far away from all of you as I can, and I won't even notice I'm doing it.