An Experiment in Truth

A friend told me they're still trying to work out what to say for my eulogy. I didn't tell them I currently have every desire to b...

People have been rereading my blog and commenting, making me reread my blog and prompting me to actually write something 6 weeks ago I ...

I have to make it through I tell myself.  I have to get through this.  By why?  Why do I tell myself that? Because it's what's expe...

My old roommate came to stay.  We have a joke that we're not boyfriends.  I don't have any kind of romantic love for him.  He's ...

Go away.  Just... Stop.  Just like that.  It'd be nice wouldn't it.

I'm just putting this out there, any crazed psycho murders wanna turn up in my bedroom overnight, I'm game.  For real. Just saying....

You probably know I pick my words very carefully.  My choice of one word over another is usually intentional, reasoned, planned. 'Surv...

We fell by the wayside, and slowly watched ourselves die A lonely death in which no one cared and no one came When the walls cave in, we o...

I wish I had a way to stop all this.  All of it

...Because buses don't go fast enough during rush hour. That was the answer I gave when asked why I'd come to A&E. San Franc...

The other day I found out I do not have melanoma.  It was my second cancer scare within 6 months. I'm a pretty sickly kid, I have one h...

I'm still alive.  At this point it begins to count as surviving.  Surviving is what I do. I don't know why.  Everyone who wakes up ...

Give me some present counsel, or, behold, 'Twixt my extremes and me this bloody knife Shall play the umpire, arbitrating that Whi...

Drowning: Easy accessibility near river & docks.  Best done late night to give hours before discovery.  Would need to trap self underwa...

My fingers itch. Today should not be happening.  It shouldn't exist.   I  shouldn't exist today.  My right hand hurts from punchin...

Warning: very blunt and graphic post about attempting suicide last Thursday.  Feel free not to read if this makes you uncomfortable. S...

EDIT:  I'm alive.  Below is a scheduled post that should have appeared after my death.  I have more to say on the matter later but for n...