The simplest most amazing thing I love doing with a guy is cuddling up with him.
More specifically, I love being the big spoon, the one to hold you in my arms. Yes, I'm a little guy, and a sub, and a bottom, and I really really love being held and a guy wrapping his arrms around me as he gets into bed (and feeling his cock against my ass :P), but honestly, there is no greater, simpler pleasure for me in life, than having a guy fall asleep with his head on my lap, or curling up against me as we watch movies, or letting me hold him in bed, to be the one that gets to effectively say "you are mine to protect, and i will always do that for you". And maybe the size thing is something to do with it, that a guy a foot or so taller than me will feel so comfortable with me, that he trusts me so much, he'll go okay you're small, okay i might choke half the life out of you as i fuck your ass, but now, in this moment, you get to be the one that takes care of the other in the relationship.
It's definitely a sign of trust and affection on my part. I hate people leaning on me, falling asleep on me. It's a childhood neurosis thing, being small people always use me as rests and it pisses the hell out of me. For the guys i really care about, i'll let you rest your head on my shoulder, and fall asleep on me, because i'm happy just to be with you, and any amount of mental irritation, or physical discomfort when my arm inevitably goes dead, is worth it for those boys.
There are many things that make me smile in the world, and there are all sorts of things that I enjoy, but this is the simplest thing, that will have me grinning the entire time whilst it's happening. I love it and it's important to recognise the little things.
Monday, 16 April 2012
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
525,600 minutes
No thankfully my flight isn't that long...
It's very weird to think I've only been here a week and a half, and I have 2.5 more weeks to go. Oh sure the week in Vegas will fly by. But I've already been to 4 different cities, through 3 different airports, on 2 coach journeys, stayed in 4 different houses, and I haven't even hit LA yet! Boy when I travel, I sure do travel!
As a random experiement, as I like doing things like this, I've been seeing how far I can get through this trip without actually needing printed paper confirmations. This mostly started because I don't have a printer at home, and by using my smartphone email, I can usually provide whatever documentation is required if they actually demand to see a copy of it. Luckily for most places, some for of ID, reference number and/or payment card is all I need. If you haven't travelled in a while the new suite of airline smartphone apps is amazing. You can upload your flights, check in, pick seats, search for upgrades, get terminal map layouts, download QR code boarding passes, track your bags, check for delays, get gate numbers in advance, and do pretty much everything imaginable using them. So far I've crossed 2 international borders (3 if you include the fact I flew over Canada), one ocean and am currently in the process of traversing the entire United States, using nothing more than a QR tag on my phone screen and my passport. I got my foreign currency by showing them my ID and the card I paid on, I picked up my NY Rangers tickets using my ID alone. I don't need an A-Z or transit map anymore as I can download it all to my phone using apps for the MTA in NYC, MBTA up in Boston, and I'll get the LA app once I land, just as you can use the tube app when in London. And now I can write this up, and check twitter, and even get my foursquare checkin, all using wi-fi at 30,000 feet. Digital Age, eat your heart out.
Okay so we don't have hover boards yet, but the fact I can travel 14,000 miles, including everything else associated with being abroad and travelling, using just my phone to cover everything. My mum even asked if I wanted her to bring out my travel insurance documents when I see her in a week - I already have them all downloaded in pdf form on my phone. All my music is on spotify, all my friends are on AIM, twitter, facebook, MSN, Skype, whatsapp etc. I can log in to Gaydar, Recon, Manhunt, A4A using apps or the web browser. I can download the weather, load up maps in case I get lost trying to find somewhere, use GPS navigation if we're in a car, I could blog from my phone, I can use word and excel and power point, anything that's not ON my phone is in my email or dropbox, both of which I can get to, I can even apply for jobs whilst I'm away using various apps and the browser. Pretty much all we're missing at this point is the public retinal scanners to replace my passport as ID, and we're in the future that's written about and on our tv and cinema screens for so long. The architecture just isn't as shiny, that's all. This has all been coming together for a long time, but I personally feel like finally, it's at the point where everything is becoming seamless, and I'm starting to be able to do whatever I want, however I want, as it suits me.
It's very weird to think I've only been here a week and a half, and I have 2.5 more weeks to go. Oh sure the week in Vegas will fly by. But I've already been to 4 different cities, through 3 different airports, on 2 coach journeys, stayed in 4 different houses, and I haven't even hit LA yet! Boy when I travel, I sure do travel!
As a random experiement, as I like doing things like this, I've been seeing how far I can get through this trip without actually needing printed paper confirmations. This mostly started because I don't have a printer at home, and by using my smartphone email, I can usually provide whatever documentation is required if they actually demand to see a copy of it. Luckily for most places, some for of ID, reference number and/or payment card is all I need. If you haven't travelled in a while the new suite of airline smartphone apps is amazing. You can upload your flights, check in, pick seats, search for upgrades, get terminal map layouts, download QR code boarding passes, track your bags, check for delays, get gate numbers in advance, and do pretty much everything imaginable using them. So far I've crossed 2 international borders (3 if you include the fact I flew over Canada), one ocean and am currently in the process of traversing the entire United States, using nothing more than a QR tag on my phone screen and my passport. I got my foreign currency by showing them my ID and the card I paid on, I picked up my NY Rangers tickets using my ID alone. I don't need an A-Z or transit map anymore as I can download it all to my phone using apps for the MTA in NYC, MBTA up in Boston, and I'll get the LA app once I land, just as you can use the tube app when in London. And now I can write this up, and check twitter, and even get my foursquare checkin, all using wi-fi at 30,000 feet. Digital Age, eat your heart out.
Okay so we don't have hover boards yet, but the fact I can travel 14,000 miles, including everything else associated with being abroad and travelling, using just my phone to cover everything. My mum even asked if I wanted her to bring out my travel insurance documents when I see her in a week - I already have them all downloaded in pdf form on my phone. All my music is on spotify, all my friends are on AIM, twitter, facebook, MSN, Skype, whatsapp etc. I can log in to Gaydar, Recon, Manhunt, A4A using apps or the web browser. I can download the weather, load up maps in case I get lost trying to find somewhere, use GPS navigation if we're in a car, I could blog from my phone, I can use word and excel and power point, anything that's not ON my phone is in my email or dropbox, both of which I can get to, I can even apply for jobs whilst I'm away using various apps and the browser. Pretty much all we're missing at this point is the public retinal scanners to replace my passport as ID, and we're in the future that's written about and on our tv and cinema screens for so long. The architecture just isn't as shiny, that's all. This has all been coming together for a long time, but I personally feel like finally, it's at the point where everything is becoming seamless, and I'm starting to be able to do whatever I want, however I want, as it suits me.
Monday, 2 April 2012
The World Is Quiet Here...
I am sitting in one of the reading rooms of the New York Public Library. The place where Carrie got stood up by Big in the SATC movie. I love the big metropolitan public libraries in the US. Maybe I've just made some massive oversights, but I don't find anything like them in the UK. Oh sure we have lots of little community libraries, though lots of those are getting closed down at the moment of course, and we have places like the British Library, but what I love about public libraries in major cities in the US is that they're in the grand impressive buildings, and that I as a foreigner, can freely walk in, roam all over, even set up in a reading room and get on with some blogging, or use their internet to plan the rest of my day, or whatever.
They remind me of University libraries, the rooms are big and bright with lots of people working and, with power, and personal desk lamps, and high ceilings and giant paintings on the walls. And you don't need any access card, any sign up, anything to be able to enjoy this. It's a very hard feeling to explain, but I don't find similar places in the UK, and I certainly don't find many UK libraries at all as inviting as the ones in the US.
As I said, I'm in New York today, I got in yesterday afternoon and went over to my friend Jarrod's place in Astoria. We went to Madison Square Garden last night to see the New York Rangers play hockey, in case you hadn't guessed from my twitter and facebook posts. It was my birthday present to myself which I bought about 9 months ago, I spent $350 on the tickets, but fuck yeah was it worth it. They lost their game, but it was amazing to see MY TEAM, which I love, and follow, even to the point of keeping up on the scouting reports for next season's prospects like a really dedicated sports fan - playing live. On home ice. They didn't play as good as they could have done and it was a shame I didn't get to see them win, as that's likely the only game I'll ever get to in my life, or at least for a good few years, but I loved every single second of it, even the guy throwing homophobic slurs at players who was sitting next to me. If I drunk beer I even would have gladly paid the $10 a bottle price.
Wandering round NYC today, I did all the tourist stuff like 2 years ago, and I'm only here for about 36 hours so there's not much I can get up to, I'm mostly just having fun walking around the city, I went to some of the gay shops, there's a rather impressive Rufskin boutique who sell some really beautiful jeans that I just can't justify at $160 even thought they fit me PERFECTLY. I got to visit the Nasty Pig store which was awesome, the guys in there are REALLY HOT, and I found out even I love Nasty Pig rubber, it feels great, doesn't have that rubber smell (which is one of the things that turns me off about the whole deal), and their rubber trousers are only $140 which is pretty damned fucking cheap! They even do them in a 28" waist which is awesome. They don't fit great, so I didn't buy them, but it was worth a visit to the store, if only just to make Adam jealous :P
I also got to visit Big Gay Ice Cream, who I've been following for ages and all through their recent store purchase and fit up so was really eager to head over and get something. I highly recommend the Mermaid - ice cream, key lime curd and graham crackers. I just wish I was here more days so I could go work my way through the entire menu over 2 weeks or so.
Currently wandering the streets of 5th Avenue, then might head over to Penn Station, then down to Wall St AFTER business hours when it's a little quieter, then maybe back up to Central Park for the museums. I've only been going 4 hours and I've probably walked 80 blocks already. I'm impatient when it comes to the metro, just like I'm impatient with tubes and buses in London, so I just tend to walk. I'm really looking forward to being over in California again, current forecast of 70-80 degrees whilst I'm there so if I'm lucky maybe I can go hit the beach and find some cute surfer boys to play with (not on the beach though, sand gets everywhere, it's not pleasant) Will need to find some power i.e. an empty starbucks eventually to recharge laptop and phone, but I'm having fun. Missing certain peoples obviously, but I have several ideas of presents to bring them back and I'll probably be arranging some Skype dates when I'm kicking around in LA later in the week.
They remind me of University libraries, the rooms are big and bright with lots of people working and, with power, and personal desk lamps, and high ceilings and giant paintings on the walls. And you don't need any access card, any sign up, anything to be able to enjoy this. It's a very hard feeling to explain, but I don't find similar places in the UK, and I certainly don't find many UK libraries at all as inviting as the ones in the US.
As I said, I'm in New York today, I got in yesterday afternoon and went over to my friend Jarrod's place in Astoria. We went to Madison Square Garden last night to see the New York Rangers play hockey, in case you hadn't guessed from my twitter and facebook posts. It was my birthday present to myself which I bought about 9 months ago, I spent $350 on the tickets, but fuck yeah was it worth it. They lost their game, but it was amazing to see MY TEAM, which I love, and follow, even to the point of keeping up on the scouting reports for next season's prospects like a really dedicated sports fan - playing live. On home ice. They didn't play as good as they could have done and it was a shame I didn't get to see them win, as that's likely the only game I'll ever get to in my life, or at least for a good few years, but I loved every single second of it, even the guy throwing homophobic slurs at players who was sitting next to me. If I drunk beer I even would have gladly paid the $10 a bottle price.
Wandering round NYC today, I did all the tourist stuff like 2 years ago, and I'm only here for about 36 hours so there's not much I can get up to, I'm mostly just having fun walking around the city, I went to some of the gay shops, there's a rather impressive Rufskin boutique who sell some really beautiful jeans that I just can't justify at $160 even thought they fit me PERFECTLY. I got to visit the Nasty Pig store which was awesome, the guys in there are REALLY HOT, and I found out even I love Nasty Pig rubber, it feels great, doesn't have that rubber smell (which is one of the things that turns me off about the whole deal), and their rubber trousers are only $140 which is pretty damned fucking cheap! They even do them in a 28" waist which is awesome. They don't fit great, so I didn't buy them, but it was worth a visit to the store, if only just to make Adam jealous :P
I also got to visit Big Gay Ice Cream, who I've been following for ages and all through their recent store purchase and fit up so was really eager to head over and get something. I highly recommend the Mermaid - ice cream, key lime curd and graham crackers. I just wish I was here more days so I could go work my way through the entire menu over 2 weeks or so.
Currently wandering the streets of 5th Avenue, then might head over to Penn Station, then down to Wall St AFTER business hours when it's a little quieter, then maybe back up to Central Park for the museums. I've only been going 4 hours and I've probably walked 80 blocks already. I'm impatient when it comes to the metro, just like I'm impatient with tubes and buses in London, so I just tend to walk. I'm really looking forward to being over in California again, current forecast of 70-80 degrees whilst I'm there so if I'm lucky maybe I can go hit the beach and find some cute surfer boys to play with (not on the beach though, sand gets everywhere, it's not pleasant) Will need to find some power i.e. an empty starbucks eventually to recharge laptop and phone, but I'm having fun. Missing certain peoples obviously, but I have several ideas of presents to bring them back and I'll probably be arranging some Skype dates when I'm kicking around in LA later in the week.
Sunday, 1 April 2012
Another suitcase in another bus garage...
Another journey, another bus terminal, another delayed departure and/or arrival. Thank god for the free wifi infrastructure though. It certainly helps to pass the time, even if my laptop battery is old and dying and took 16% of it's charge just to boot up. I decided not to pay the extra $50 to go greyhound and get a power socket so I'm just hoping my laptop stays alive long enough to get this post done.
Yesterday was another day in Providence, with my Ameriwtin Lauren, her sister, Terence, and a guy called Derek who was nice enough to offer me some crash space for the night - he lives in dorms which are bigger than most London flats. Granite worktops, stainless steel appliances including a dishwasher, spiral staircase, partial open plan layout, a great view of the Rhode Island state house. Clearly I was a student in the wrong country.
Incidentally, I must remember whilst sitting in a public setting, that half of my twitter followers avi's are not suitable for general viewing :P
We now return to our regularly scheduled programming. We went to see The Hunger Games finally yesterday, it involves 3 hot boys (and a perfectly okay girl that's just not my type) dressed in tight clothing, being set on fire, trying to kill each other, and generally getting covered in dirt and blood. As a point of advice, you should never ever go see a film with me and Terence and allow us to sit next to each other because we will make snide comments at each other and giggle throughout the entire thing. It gets right to the not-so-climactic ending and Terence suddenly yells "booo" and I burst out laughing in response. Not as bad however as when Lauren, whispers to me "I want some guy to put his finger in my gash". Score one to Lauren for managing to creep me out in the middle of a cinema screen. We then went to Dave & Busters for trashy food and arcade games, which put me in kid mode and I was happy. I made the most of my last day with my New England friends because I knew I was leaving them, though at least this time, I know I'll be back in 3 weeks. And thanks to Derek offering me a place to stay, I didn't get murdered in my sleep by Terence's ex, who I don't seem to get on with particularly well - no surprises there then.
Off to New York, very very excited for Rangers hockey, I'm sitting in section 101 so it's going to be amazing. Taking the friend I'm staying with as a thank you as I have a spare ticket anyway and he's never been to an NHL match. NYC and LA will no doubt signal the return of the Eddie you all know and love, so watch my twitter feed for entertaining boy stories. Then I can go be good again whilst I'm with my family over in Vegas.
I always forget how different gay culture is over here, it's not that it's unmanageable, just the unwritten, unspoken rules are subtly different and I always have to forcibly remind myself that I need to act differently when I'm in the US to how I'm in the UK.
Also, why does it not matter who I'm with, why do late night conversations always involve me talking about sex??? Honestly it's not like I even try, I think it's just cause I'm quite open and honest about it, and if it's relevant to the conversation I'll mention something sex related, so I guess that both prompts it, and makes other people feel relaxed about the subject, especially in the US where sex is still a hell of a lot more of a taboo subject that in the UK. And as always, I can always go with the fact that due to the friends I tend to hang around with, if I haven't been there and done it, someone I know will have, all the good and bad. Hey if it promotes a better understanding of practically anything to do with sex, I suppose it serves its purpose.
Oh gee great, I'm in the bit of the route that does not, in fact, have wi-fi access. 51% on the battery, though the battery icon makes it look as though it has about 28% remaining so I'm not entirely sure which to trust. I may just save this as a word document to be on the safe side.
I have also just recieved an ominous message from my parents saying they have news that will help my financial situation - I know they didn't win any of the $600,000,000+ lottery draw as I bought the tickets for that, but hmmmm, curiouser and curiouser.
What's new with you lot? I miss you all, especially certain people. The next week or so is going to be hardest in some ways, I'll be hanging out with my California friends and spending time with them, but I'll be missing all of my UK gays and most of my best friends in the US are in MA so to leave kinda sucks. If I get all emo on twitter you know why.
If you're in NYC, LA, or Boston and want to meet up send me a message. I've made lots of new friends already in Boston and the Cape and I'm really happy just to meet people for a simple coffee. I have time in all 3 of those cities so let me know. With enough persuasion and/or financial aid I could make it to surrounding areas such as San Diego, or elsewhere in Mass. I'm hoping to have a nice big farewell dinner on my last night in Boston before I get my flight home and it'd be great to see anyone I've met over the last week, or even just say hi & goodbye to people I have yet to.
Also, there is a rumour going around the Providence Drag Brunch that I give really good hugs. It's all true, every word. So long as you don't really need kidneys in the long term.
39% and may need battery for other things so gonna save this, shut down, and upload whenever I get the chance later today. Make that a sudden drop to 15%... My laptop really is fucked.
Yesterday was another day in Providence, with my Ameriwtin Lauren, her sister, Terence, and a guy called Derek who was nice enough to offer me some crash space for the night - he lives in dorms which are bigger than most London flats. Granite worktops, stainless steel appliances including a dishwasher, spiral staircase, partial open plan layout, a great view of the Rhode Island state house. Clearly I was a student in the wrong country.
Incidentally, I must remember whilst sitting in a public setting, that half of my twitter followers avi's are not suitable for general viewing :P
We now return to our regularly scheduled programming. We went to see The Hunger Games finally yesterday, it involves 3 hot boys (and a perfectly okay girl that's just not my type) dressed in tight clothing, being set on fire, trying to kill each other, and generally getting covered in dirt and blood. As a point of advice, you should never ever go see a film with me and Terence and allow us to sit next to each other because we will make snide comments at each other and giggle throughout the entire thing. It gets right to the not-so-climactic ending and Terence suddenly yells "booo" and I burst out laughing in response. Not as bad however as when Lauren, whispers to me "I want some guy to put his finger in my gash". Score one to Lauren for managing to creep me out in the middle of a cinema screen. We then went to Dave & Busters for trashy food and arcade games, which put me in kid mode and I was happy. I made the most of my last day with my New England friends because I knew I was leaving them, though at least this time, I know I'll be back in 3 weeks. And thanks to Derek offering me a place to stay, I didn't get murdered in my sleep by Terence's ex, who I don't seem to get on with particularly well - no surprises there then.
Off to New York, very very excited for Rangers hockey, I'm sitting in section 101 so it's going to be amazing. Taking the friend I'm staying with as a thank you as I have a spare ticket anyway and he's never been to an NHL match. NYC and LA will no doubt signal the return of the Eddie you all know and love, so watch my twitter feed for entertaining boy stories. Then I can go be good again whilst I'm with my family over in Vegas.
I always forget how different gay culture is over here, it's not that it's unmanageable, just the unwritten, unspoken rules are subtly different and I always have to forcibly remind myself that I need to act differently when I'm in the US to how I'm in the UK.
Also, why does it not matter who I'm with, why do late night conversations always involve me talking about sex??? Honestly it's not like I even try, I think it's just cause I'm quite open and honest about it, and if it's relevant to the conversation I'll mention something sex related, so I guess that both prompts it, and makes other people feel relaxed about the subject, especially in the US where sex is still a hell of a lot more of a taboo subject that in the UK. And as always, I can always go with the fact that due to the friends I tend to hang around with, if I haven't been there and done it, someone I know will have, all the good and bad. Hey if it promotes a better understanding of practically anything to do with sex, I suppose it serves its purpose.
Oh gee great, I'm in the bit of the route that does not, in fact, have wi-fi access. 51% on the battery, though the battery icon makes it look as though it has about 28% remaining so I'm not entirely sure which to trust. I may just save this as a word document to be on the safe side.
I have also just recieved an ominous message from my parents saying they have news that will help my financial situation - I know they didn't win any of the $600,000,000+ lottery draw as I bought the tickets for that, but hmmmm, curiouser and curiouser.
What's new with you lot? I miss you all, especially certain people. The next week or so is going to be hardest in some ways, I'll be hanging out with my California friends and spending time with them, but I'll be missing all of my UK gays and most of my best friends in the US are in MA so to leave kinda sucks. If I get all emo on twitter you know why.
If you're in NYC, LA, or Boston and want to meet up send me a message. I've made lots of new friends already in Boston and the Cape and I'm really happy just to meet people for a simple coffee. I have time in all 3 of those cities so let me know. With enough persuasion and/or financial aid I could make it to surrounding areas such as San Diego, or elsewhere in Mass. I'm hoping to have a nice big farewell dinner on my last night in Boston before I get my flight home and it'd be great to see anyone I've met over the last week, or even just say hi & goodbye to people I have yet to.
Also, there is a rumour going around the Providence Drag Brunch that I give really good hugs. It's all true, every word. So long as you don't really need kidneys in the long term.
39% and may need battery for other things so gonna save this, shut down, and upload whenever I get the chance later today. Make that a sudden drop to 15%... My laptop really is fucked.
Saturday, 31 March 2012
In love with Downtown Crossing...
One week down...
Yes that's right you still have to cope without me for another 3 weeks, sorry about that. And trust all of you to start falling apart the second I leave the continent. Or rather, start falling apart even more. I am, of course, always here for you, but there's only so much that I can do from several thousand miles away. That said, the break is doing me good. Oh sure I've been unemployed and not doing much for a few months now, but the actually getting away from it all, taking a break from all your worries part of the holiday is doing exactly what it's supposed to. After even just a week, I'm missing you all more, I'm feeling a lot better within myself, I'm feeling more refereshed, and feel prepared to face all those people I've been neglecting over the past 2 or 3 months, and that includes facing the consquences of neglecting them so. By 4 weeks I should be ready to go... (you may begin playing Republica right about now)
So it's been a hectic, and expensive week. Could everyone stop shagging around 4th July, or just in the summer in general. There are way too many march babies and that all costs money with dinners and drinks etc. I stayed my first few nights in Providence with Terence and Brandon. That was... fun, as you might expect. One psychotic break and a night spent avoiding cops later, as well as playing with a boy's snake - not like that you filthy lot, I just really like snakes as pets, I find playing with them really relaxing, and I eventually escaped that madness to the Cape to stay with my friends Patrick and Nate. I love those boys bless 'em, but as Lauren put it "for a gay man's house, it really needs a woman's touch." And it's the Cape in the off season and I didn't have a car, so it was a lot of dull daytimes, though they were more than made up for by nights out in Providence, Boston, & Hyannis.
Oh yes, by the way, I met Lauren! My Ameritwin, Terence's best friend. We've been talking via facebook for about a year or so now but had never actually met. She's about my height, we have the same birthday, she's a boston lawyer who doesn't drink, doesn't do late nights, and is at the gym at 0445; I'm a club kid who hangs out with porn stars, goes to the gay sauna each week and gets high on various different chemicals. Somehow we totally hit it off. Mostly through a love of Jack's Mannequin and trashy TV and retro movies. She and her friend CJ (who is muscular and rather hot so I was in no way complaining) came down to the Cape to hang out one day which was amazing and meant a lot to me. Lauren is already planning to come over to visit London and EuroDisney next March. I'm super excited.
Today I'm in Boston, tomorrow I'm out with Lauren, Terence and a few others in Providence celebrating our twinday. Sunday I head to NYC to see my first ever New York Rangers game. That's hockey in case you hadn't guessed. You may wish to turn off my twitter stream at that point. Though it'lll be midnight - 4am UK time so most of you will probably miss it anyway.
We're going out in Boston tonight but I came into town early. Not because I had any plans, just because I really love Boston. I just wandered round the city all day, getting my mental map of it sorted in my head, and enjoying all the beautiful buildings. I've said it before, Boston is one of the very very few cities I've ever visited that I could quite happily live in for the rest of my life. And I love that for various reasons, whilst I've probably only spent 3 days in Boston, some of the strongest memories I have are associated with it, so it's nice to wander round and be reminded of them. And at the end of the day I can go to Starbucks, plug in my laptop, sit with a coffee, and write all my random thoughts down. The last 24h have generally been filled with feelings of contentment. I can't explain why, I know you all think I'm mad, but I really love being in the US, even just getting the coach from Hyannis to Boston today, okay it was 40 minutes late getting in, but I still loved the journey.
As a rather surreal train of thought, I once again find myself thinking Chris would probably really really like Cape Cod and Boston, and he should really come visit sometime, it's a shame he probably never will, and yes I know that's my fault :P
On another note, I am currently scheming on a certain subject which only a select few know about. I am drawing up a mental list of favours I will either be cashing in or begging anew from all of you over the next few months, be prepared ;) *insert ominous music here*
Thursday, 22 March 2012
The short, indirect, and somewhat abstract version.
There are certain things I cannot post right now, because they would complicate matters. I have and am writing them down; those posts are delayed and will appear at some point in the future when I can disregard the consequences of my actions.
There is one thing I can post.
And that is thank you.
Thank you to all of my friends for the last week. To all of you who didn't judge, who accepted, and who just got it, and smiled at me from across the room because you not only understood, you could see everything I was talking about, because it was shining out of me. I used to change my friendship groups a lot, there's plenty of posts in the blog where I get pissed off and just write most of them off and start again. And with one significant recent exception that I thought I'd never have to make, I haven't done that in a long while. Because I have worked hard to find the friends I did, who are people who don't judge, who don't ask, who don't even need to know why, just that it's something to do with you, and they will come running, and rally, and accept whatever they are given, for you. And so many of you did that for me this week and you are all exactly the people I want in my life. And three people in particular blew me away with what they did for me, they completely changed a few lives this week by just making a few simple comments. And they are far from unnoticed, and I can never express enough gratitude for them, but the difference they made will be felt for a long time. So thank you to them, thank you to all of you who were thing week pure and simple, nothing less than, good friends. I will spare you when the revolution comes... :P
Thursday, 8 March 2012
What does a man do?
I've been listening to the Assassins' soundtrack over and over and over, letting it work both consciously, trying to work out where cues and effects should go, and subconsciously, letting moments come to me suddenly despite it being the 20th time i've listened to the track. I've got some staging ideas, they're not ideal yet and certainly not what I'm going to be the design based off, but it's really all just brainstorming at this point and eventually I'll put what I'm happy with together. It doesn't have to be perfect, I don't even have to know how to build it, it just has to be practical and actually work.
However much I try, I just can't get into 'Unworthy Of Your Love', or 'November 22nd, 1963' though. Oh sure, there are songs in the musical I'm not huge fans of, but I can at least get them into my head and think about what I wanna do with them and such. Those two however I just can't come up with a single decent design idea at the moment. I don't like them at all. They're just dull points in the narrative to me. Hopefully that mindset changes at some point...
However much I try, I just can't get into 'Unworthy Of Your Love', or 'November 22nd, 1963' though. Oh sure, there are songs in the musical I'm not huge fans of, but I can at least get them into my head and think about what I wanna do with them and such. Those two however I just can't come up with a single decent design idea at the moment. I don't like them at all. They're just dull points in the narrative to me. Hopefully that mindset changes at some point...
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